And I wonder, what do they do with the bodies?

I have this theory that if you want someone to fall in love with you and stay in love with you you cannot give them the one thing they really want.  You must keep it from them at all costs and show it to them every once in a while to keep them along hoping for it.

Once you give something away, its fair game, public knowledge and it gets boring and old and broken just like everything else.  Then its time to move onto something new.  It has been proven to me time and time again over the course of my romances.

Other then that I might have "given it away" a few nights ago and now risk never getting it back and now risk never even hearing from someone again.  Do I feel bad about it? Yes and no.  Yes because I really do love this person and care for them and so on and so forth.  No because I'm not sure if they really care for me the same way and if I could skip the heart break in advanced that'd be nice.

I can't see what my options are but waiting and waiting.  I'm pretty sure I have no way out, I'll find out soon enough.

-Chris

Fuck

Is it so much to ask for something to go right for more then a day in my life?

Is it to much to ask for people to respond to anything I say?

Is it to much to ask for anything?

Apparently...

Falling from the apple tree

I've been presented with a huge problem I have created for my self.  Though let me reassure you its not an intentional creating but the fact that its there tells me something.  I really want this but don't want to live with the consequences of my actions...who does...

Oh god Brian...why do you do this to me every time...