Photo-Faggotry

Marc Coderre [Pop Icn]

Digital Print

Nikon D40x

OHHHh MAHHH GOOOOD

I really really really want a rottweiler

Thats one for the show

I just had my Gallery X debut last night with the help of some amazing friends I've made.  I have 2 pieces in the show each selling for about $100.  You should all check it out its in New Bedford.

GO NOW FAGGOTS!

-Chris

HELLA-HELLA-SEXY

I just got my Septum pierced and its hella sexy!

S A I L O R J E R R Y

Sailor Jerry, moving heavy items, laughing my ass off...Thats the best way to spend any day of my life.

America Art Work #1

So I've finally started cracking on my pieces for the "America" Show.  I decided to do a series inspired by fireworks off of Old Orchard Beach.  I used found wood, birch bark, Cepocal staining, Oil Pigments and glass to create this piece.

Basically I've been trying to create a smooth yet sporadic and chaotic feeling that fireworks give off.  This is all thanks to me getting a massive sun burn and being bored to tears.  Thank you sun for destroying my skin but enriching my portfolio!   I LUVS YOUUUUU!

-Chris

I Think That Its Time For Us To Leave This Place

So I went to my interview at the Newbury Comics warehouse in Boston and everything went fine, I got a second interview coming up soon so hopefully I'll get this job.  I got the worst sunburn of my life when I decided to lay out on the boston commons...I fell asleep for like an hour and now I'm in crippling pain.

BUT I came home and found out I was accepted to UMass Dartmouth so that was fucking AWSOME because I was really hopping I'd get in because it'd be cheaper and I could live there.  So we shall see!

I think I'm gonna go take a shower then bathe in Aloe Vera.

-Chris

all ends in cussing and crying

So today I decided it was time to upgrade my earrings for new spiral plugs.  Being at a 12g pierce I decided skipping to an 8g would CLEARLY be the intelligent solution.  Needless to say it stung a tad but nothing too too bad.  They look bitchin, I cant decided if I want to wear them fully spiraled in or dangling from the top curve.

At the moment I can't stop moving them around which is really bad for them.  The ones I got are acrylic but I want to get some Bison bone ones that I saw off GUARD designs site.

BAND OF THE NIGHT!!!!

[IWRESTLEDABEARONCE]

Well, I'm gonna go rest and relax for a bit, later everyone.

-Chris

Where did all the sad songs go

Lately I've had a huge resurgence in my love for 80's music.  Compiling a list of them to fit for a perfect mix took some time and I finally did it.  

The list is as follows:

A-Ha - Take on Me

Visage - Fade to Grey

The Talking Heads - Once in a Lifetime 

The Auteurs - Rubettes

Bronski Beat - Small Town Boy

The Cramps - Can't Hardly Stand It

Culture Club - Karma Chameleon

Men Without Hats - Pop Goes The World

The Cure - Friday I'm in Love

The Smiths - William, It Was Really Nothing

Bauhaus - She's in Parties

Sonic Youth - Superstar

Joy Division - Shadowplay

My Bloody Valentine - Come in Alone

Dead or Alive - You Spin Me Right Round

The Waitresses - I Know What Boys Want

I'm very satisfied with the mix as a whole.  For some who don't know the band I mentioned, The Auteurs, They are a British pop/shoegaze band that never really made it big over here so I will post a youtube video of them.

Later Gators.

-Chris

10 10 10 10 FOR EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING

So my Grandma's health has really taken a turn for the worst with her kidneys failing from the chemo treatment.  They don't really expect her to live that much longer.

I really need to leave this town and quite possibly this state... 

I'm Dreaming of Places Where Lovers Have Wings

Yesterday was stressful and long.  I don't know why but everything seems to go wrong at the most inoppertune times...not that there is a great time for things to go wrong but still.

Hopefully things will get better soon.

Other then that I've started doing my collage work inside boxes of Nat Sherman Cigarette boxes.  The pictures one of the recent ones I have done, we'll see where this will evolve to.

-Chris

Night Elf Mohawk

So I'm going to RI tomorrow to go see Marc again :)

I shaved my head tonight because a few people I know are going through Chemo soon and we all decided it was mohawks.

I need sleep, 3 bennis and I'm dead...

-Chris

Coventry Graveyards

Marc Coderre, Nikon D40x, B&W Digital Print

OH MY GAWWWD

Today was quite possibly the most amazing day of my life...but more on that later.

-Chris

And I wonder, what do they do with the bodies?

I have this theory that if you want someone to fall in love with you and stay in love with you you cannot give them the one thing they really want.  You must keep it from them at all costs and show it to them every once in a while to keep them along hoping for it.

Once you give something away, its fair game, public knowledge and it gets boring and old and broken just like everything else.  Then its time to move onto something new.  It has been proven to me time and time again over the course of my romances.

Other then that I might have "given it away" a few nights ago and now risk never getting it back and now risk never even hearing from someone again.  Do I feel bad about it? Yes and no.  Yes because I really do love this person and care for them and so on and so forth.  No because I'm not sure if they really care for me the same way and if I could skip the heart break in advanced that'd be nice.

I can't see what my options are but waiting and waiting.  I'm pretty sure I have no way out, I'll find out soon enough.

-Chris

Fuck

Is it so much to ask for something to go right for more then a day in my life?

Is it to much to ask for people to respond to anything I say?

Is it to much to ask for anything?

Apparently...

Falling from the apple tree

I've been presented with a huge problem I have created for my self.  Though let me reassure you its not an intentional creating but the fact that its there tells me something.  I really want this but don't want to live with the consequences of my actions...who does...

Oh god Brian...why do you do this to me every time...

Bohemianism

20 years of beating the hell out of my insides
And I'm finally out of the joint
With the rest of the human race
If anyone asked me to go back
I'd damn near break my neck fleeing from them.
I wouldn't own it.

Apparently back home
in Massachusetts
I'm called a Bohemian 
As always 6 of 1
Half dozen of the others
(The others being a twangy voice, some bartender,
A counterman, the sea, a mongoose and a Bellevue)

I've started dressing in the cast off clothes of these friends
Their overcoats, their suites,
Their shirts and even their shoes.
The only thing that fits me nowerdays are bitter New England winters
And a layer of newspaper.

Unusual
One summer evening party
Spent in a sear-sucker suite
Just to prove that I'm all Hand-me-downs
A crumpled cigarette picked up off the sidewalk
Anyways
This lifestyle is overrated
Bohemianism has aged
Considerably beyond its years...
...I'd guess by about 260-270 now.

I wrote that poem a while ago and have just gotten around to posting it here and on Facebook.  It kind of explains the sense of total abandon I'm feeling at the moment with this semi-huge problem I've created for myself to conquer...

Thats a really innaproriate term for this situation but I think I will let it slide by just for now, just this once, as I have for every oppertunity that has come my way...

-chris

Chasing Pavments

The cat next from down the street that hangs out with us is dying and I'm so sad.  Her hips are starting to go and you can tell when she sits and walks.  It was hard for me to not cry my eyes out.

I sat with her a bit and patted her and gave her some treats and a catnip toy.  Anything to make her life a little easier. Oh god I can't believe it she has been around for so long and I'm gonna miss her so much.

-Chris

SUICIDE--ER

Well it has been a while since I posted here but not a whole ton has changed.  I'm finally out of classes and stress free for a tad but I still feel so stressed and so sad sometimes and I can't figure out why.  Besides that I'm trying to do anything to get out of going to Acadia Maine with my parents since Jamie can't come and that was the only reason I wanted to go.

The zine has taken off so to speak and the second issue is in the works.  Besides that I've been playing WoW alot with brian and leveling my paladin, Suicider who is almost 56 and gonna hit outlands with a bang :).

Well, back to leveling

-Chris

Yo Gabba Gabba

Wow...I thought the T.V. wasn't already seriously fucked but I guess I was soooooo wrong its not even funny...What ever happened to kids shows like Bananas in Pajamas or Eureaka's Castle?  When shows where educational and not like rave/trance techno where kids need to be dosed on E to play along?

Here is a clip from one:

Ok obviously thats so messed....

-Chris

I get alot of empty cards

Yesterday Natalia and I went to the Southwicks Zoo.  It was a really good time, I hadn't been their since I was like 10 and it has expanded so much!  I got some great shots of the animals since you can get so close to them [the picture of the baboon is one I took].  The best part was feeding the deer.  They would come right up to you to eat out of your hand, so cute!

After that I was pretty exhausted and got home and proceeded to put off my 4 page Humanities paper and my artist statement for Advanced Color Processes.  Yet around 1 a.m. I wrapped everything up and had it ready to go.

The review went amazing and everyone loved the images.  It was good to hear that after I put so much effort into that body of work, which, by the way, isn't nearly finished.  I plan to continue this idea since I love it so much.

Tomorrow is my Photographic Applications review which will go....interesting to say the least.  I really dislike that class.  

Natalia and I are planning to put out a Zine, we have no idea the specifics or the name yet but with our sharp wit and sardonic ass-hole-y-ness [yes its a word] it should be good.  So if anyone wants to contribute let me know.

As for that, food time, later later

-Chris

Hometown Glory

So yesterday I wrapped up my photo projects for both Gabriel's and Ron's classes so I have a huge amount of weight lifted off my shoulders.  I also got my review on thursday so thats good, got an early one too so I will have more time to set up.

Yesterday though, on the ride home, I had downed half a bottle of coke and really needed to piss something bad.  So I'm at the Lynnfield exit and I see a "Food and Lodging" sign.  So I pull off.  Apparently by "Food and Lodging" they meant "Nothing is here you're fucked".  I drove through that town for fucking 30 minuets before turning back and just going to fucking Danvers to take a piss.  Why would people want to live in that kind of a town?  I later found out its an EXTREMELY expensive and exclusive town, one of the most expensive in MA for that matter.

Some notes on the suck-fest that is Lynnfield:

-They are soon celebrating "GERANIUM FEST" apparently a festival dedicated solely to....Geraniums...a flower...not even a  pretty flower at that.

-Lynnfield offers "Tot Connection"  this sounds really perverted but its actually where you can socially network your 1.5-3 year olds and their "Care Givers" cause rich people have kids but don't take care of them themselves...I mean god forbid right?!

-The town is organizing a "Town Golf Outing" cause that doesn't scream "WE ARE LIVING WITH OUR HEADS UP OUR ASS AND CASH IN OUR POCKETS"

-There are no gas stations in the entire town or public restrooms cause rich people don't need gas, they own the oil fields.  Also rich people don't shit...obviously.

In other news...

The Semester is almost over.  On tuesday is my last day.  I just realized this.  I am so over college.

Tal, Mike and I are hiking Blue Hills tomorrow if the weather allows for it so lets all hope.  Tonight I'm heading to Montserrat prom with Erik and Sarah.  We are getting toasted by the beach before prom because I'm sure its gonna suck ass,  free food though.

Other then that, nothing new to report, later much

-Chris

You're Changing Your Heart

In this post I think I'm going to recount my top 5 all time favorite songs.  Here we go!

1. "Buzz Saw" by Xiu Xiu.  I'm not sure why but I think it is in the simple honesty which Jamie writes and sings this song (and all of his songs).  It such a somber quiet song and you can just feel the sense of loss and longing in his voice.

[Quote] "I'm not like that.  I'm not so good.  you'll want to run away for us"

2. "Slow Dance on the Inside" by Taking Back Sunday.  I'm totally not afraid to say I LOVE THIS SONG.  Another really romantic song.  It nearly brings me to tears with all the different emotions it conveys and I can relate to.  Plus, I've always been a sucker for sing-song choruses and gang vocals.

[Quote] "This glass house is burning down, if you light the match I'll stick around.  I'll give you everything you want and wish the worst on what I was"

3. "The Saddest Story Ever Told" by The Magnetic Fields.  Its a sad sad song with a great dance beat.  You really can't beat that, just dance your tears away all through the night.  Its got a slightly muddy 60s sound that I love in a lot of their music.

[Quote] "Those days are gone, you and I where young those summer nights.  you'll see the world diving for a girl you'll never find...and then we'll quietly grow old, the saddest story ever told"

4. "Its Gonna Take a Miracle" by Laura Nyro.  Laura Nyro is basically the most amazing vocalist to ever live on this green earth.  She has such a heartbroken and soulful voice.  Its almost like she is singing you a personal lullaby.  Its so amazing how someone can pour themselves into their work like she did.  Its even more unfortunate that after a life of heart break and constant depression she finally settled down with the love of her life and died soon after.

[Quote] "Its gonna take a miracle to make me love someone new 'cause I'm crazy for you"

5.  "Half Right" by Elliot Smith.  Elliot Smith has this crippling way of orchestrating a song.  His quiet yet distressed voice conveying his somber songs really tare straight through me.  Especially in this very pared down song.  The quiet almost humming vocals are really amazing and so heart wrenching.  He was yet another artist who took his life only after his 3rd album was released and he was in the midst of record "From a Basement on a Hill".  Sometimes just listening to his songs can bring me to tears or make me smile from ear to ear. 

[Quote]"Well you shouldn't talk to yourself.  Well I pictured somebody else, someone that looks like what I look like"

There is obviously many, many more songs I love and hold close to my heart but these are the all time top 5 that I will never put behind me.  

-Chris

The Desert is the Sand

Over the past few days I have been re-evaluating my life and the people in it.  I've become increasingly frustrated and exhausted when I look back to certain events/people/things that have happened to me and are currently going on.

I am extremely frustrated with one of my best friends.  Over and over I have helped her with multiple tasks even when it wasn't the best timing for me.  Yet when I receive a call while heading into Boston, and feeling sick already, asking me to pick her up at 11:30 p.m. when I have to be up at 5:00 a.m. the next day that I explain I can't do it she gets mad at me.  Obviously I'm taken back by this and I've acted as her personal taxi driver many times in my life.  At the age of 20 she still manages to have no license, no car, nothing but a permit.  It amazes me that for someone who so obviously needs a car, or at least a license, that she hasn't been more motivated to get it.  Yet she relies on me to spring up at will and get her when ever it suites her.

As far as the situation with Brian.  I haven't been able to get it off my mind.  It is driving me insane.  I just want to hear him say what is on his mind, he never does, even when we where together.  He is like a statue and I have no idea why I even try.  I shouldn't care because it is no longer my job to and I'm not sure it ever really was.

As far as Jamie goes.  I really love him and I really mean all those things I tell him.  I just don't know if he is ready to take the step of marriage or even living together.  I'm not sure he even knows where he is heading or what he wants out of life.  I understand living in the moment and everything but there comes a time where you have to look forward to some extent.  I just need to get the hell out of Natick... 

...Yet in another sense I miss Mike, we use to have so much fun.  He would force me out into the world.  He was the kind of friend to wake you up and shake you and make you see what you where missing and then take you to go get it.  He helped me get through my high school years sane and safely.  He made me enjoy life when I had no reason to.  I think tomorrow I will pick up the phone and call him and make plans to do something with him.  Just plans to set a date to do something, anything, because its never a dull moment with Mike around.  He is one of the people who even if I leave Natick and this whole area behind, I will always stay in touch with no matter the cost.  This brings me to my next thought...

...I've been debating leaving everything and everyone here behind.  It sounds mean and all but I think it would be the healthiest things for all parties involved.  I can't handle seeing people I am so mad at and smiling like nothing is wrong and we are totally cool with each other.  Maybe Jamie and I will move to Gloucster where we can live in peace and quiet for once.  Maybe everything will pan out and play its role in this area, who knows?  All I'm sure of is I need a change and that I can't stay up feeling the way I do.

Good night,

-Chris

Crowded to the future

You can't please all the people all the time.

I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose

Sunday night Jamie, his sister and I all piled up into my green Lumina and sped off into the distance.  we ventured to the Blue Hills and hiked to the top of the mountain and watched the views of the city below us.

After this adventure we went up to Danvers way up on 128 north and ate at Denny's where we had the most amazing waitress ever.  We ended up eating everything and giving her a $10 tip.  We then headed up to Salisbury beach where I started doing more of my photos and they came out beautiful.

That night has made me feel so much better about life in general lately.

"Oh Gloucester beaches

Rocky shores

Outstretched arms

And midnight crashes

Drive me under

Big waters

Hold me down

Don't let go"

I think I'll be a good ghost

I'm tired.  I'm tired of never being happy, Of having no one around, of just wishing I could not feel like this anymore.  I can't stand it I really don;t trust myself at this point and I am far beyond content with life.  I don't know what I need to do but it must be something drastic.

I wanted to see the beach tonight, I wanted to see some friends tonight, I wish I wasn't alive tonight.

Trouble sounds like a comforting word

So for the 5th semester in a row I will not be getting into the classes I need to get my major completed at Montserrat College of Cunts.  This is why I hate this school.  This is why I am so stressed out constantly.  This is why I no longer care if I live or die.

This has been the most frustrating and disappointing time of my life to date.  I have been so drained of any will that I can hardly justify to myself why I should continue on this downward path of self destruction.

I give up.

-Chris

There was a night and a lady bright

You know, I have really grown to enjoy the art of Joel Peter Witkin.  His work may be slightly disturbing [if not excessively disturbing at times].  Yet the amazing detail and his sense of contrast and atmosphere is so impressive and astounding that I really can't imagine a more beautiful sight.  

While he does use dead bodies and while that is very unconventional to say the least, he still has a great sense of beauty and form.  His work is all about the sublime in life and the beauty in the disturbing and macabe.

with that I shall leave you too yourselves.  [the image is one o Joel Peter Witkins]

Breaking The Law

Besides my day being overly exhausting and not downing Mag'theredon last night in WoW it was good.  My mother and I went to brookline down near Coolidge Corner and got some Mexican food and coffee while roaming around and looking in all the funky shops there.

I've been overly tired recently.  I'm not sure why, I mean, I get like 10 hours of sleep already but I can't seem to get a full rest.  It is getting extreamly annoying.

Tomorrow I'm heading over to Jamie's once he is out of work and probably gonna WoW and eat pizza or something.  I miss him whenever I'm not around him.

Well I'm gonna sleep, HASTA!

-Chris

I can give you what you want

Today couldn't end fast enough.  I was exhausted, no, beyond exhausted...I couldn't believe I survived the drive home from school without crashing into a ditch.  My eyes could barely open let alone focus and it was a constant struggle for me to keep them from rolling into the back of my head.

So before I hung out with Natalia I tried to take a nap.  Yet obviously my body was having none of this "nap" bull shit so I just ended up laying on my back in bed.  It was enough to take the edge of that coma like state and Natalia called me at 3 so I went to pick her up at the Library.

We did some WoWing and walked to Honey Farms like we use to in the summer.  It made me excited for those midnight walks again.  Nothing compares to being out in a silent city, dead quiet and all alone with yourself and your friends while everyone else is all wrapped up in their bed sheets.  Kings of these suburban highways.

All pro's aside, I'm gonna drink my tea and head to sleep.  Later.

-Chris

Trash into trash equals trash flavored trash

Today I woke up early to go help my uncle to move my grandma's stove outside so they could get rid of it.  Its not until you start to spend time around my grandparents that you start t realize that maybe they aren't the picture of perfect health that you assume they are.  Its sad too because I really do love my grandparents and they've been really nice to me but the more you over hear the more you just want to pretend.

Besides that I haven't done much productive today.  Last night Jamie, Natalia and I went to Tom Can Cook for some thai food.  It was good as always.  I got a $15 parking ticket from the Cunts of Newton, that was a huge bummer...because they are douche-bags.

Well I'm gonna go veg-out, later

-Chris

You picked up a Bible and now you're gone

Today Natalia and I hung out for a while,  We went and got her hair cut at J.C. Penny's hair salon.  It is very short and came out good.  [Very dyke-ish, regardless of what she says]  

After this short stint in the Penny Salon we came back and played some video games until Jamie was out of work.  It was his mothers B-day so we celebrated with a lot of pizza...like 5 of them.  I'm so full right now its not even funny, I think I'm going to die.

Tomorrow I think I'm gonna just lay in bed all day and go "ugh...".  It's late night and the mass pike tomorrow night, it will be interesting and spur of the moment-ish.

I'm off to WoW, later

-Chris

And then we'll quietly grow old, the saddest story ever told

Tonight I'm almost positive that Natalia, Jamie and I are going to be heading to some sort of beach that we have yet to visit and explore.  Its been really nice to see Natalia again even though we don't really do much worth mentioning, its that familiar human contact.

She is currently in a somewhat affair.  She makes fun of it a lot but I know deep down that she is really worried/nervous about it.  That worries me because I don't want to end up seeing her falling apart over something like this.

[INTERMISSION: I'm not doing anything in photo class as usual]

After driving to school today I realized I didn't have enough gas to make it back home.  Luckily there was enough money in my bank account to cover some gas, once class is out I plan to get it at the Hess up here since it is hell-of-a-lot cheaper here then anywhere near my house.

I think I'm going to end up canceling plans with Brian for sunday.  I think its for the best for both of us because we are too stubborn to admit what we both want to say.

Today in good 'ole Rob Roy's Drawing II class we had the worlds longest critique which spanned 3 hours and only covered about 5 peoples works in total.  Between wanting to die and feeling dead, that class single handedly sucked all the life out of me.

ITS ALMOST TIME FOR "LATE NIGHT AND THE MASS PIKE" which is gonna be hella epic. CHYEA-YEA-YEA!

Last night Testified got into<exercitus> which is an endgame raid guild in KZ/Gruuls/Mag/SSC/TK and soon to be Hyjal.  

I got her some awesome loot and the people where all laid-back and kind. [link to armory: Testified ]

Other then that I've started reading a new book "The Delivery Man" which is a very interesting book.  I refuse to tell you what its about, you must go find out for yourself!!!!

with that I think I'm gonna head off to pretend to do work.

-Chris

You where on my mind at least 9/10ths of yesterday

Today school went slow and long as I expected and have grown quite use to.  Other then that nothing eventful to report on that front.

Tonight Natalia and I did some WoW KZ raiding, we didn't get to down any bosses due to the glitches in mob reset times but it was god to get her feet wet either way.  We also got free repair bills.  The other fun thing is I'm getting a lot of new gear on both Testified and Zurrp soon, which is lucky since they are probably 2 of the least appreciated classes in the game.

In other news; have you ever gotten spam mail so amazingly obscene/funny/stupid that you can't help but laugh your ass off?!  well that happened to me today so I feel I should share it with you.

[WARNING: SEXUAL EXPLICIT AND FULL OF LOL]

You might be thinking to yourself, how come an exotic Oriental fetish such as bukkake could become so popular. It's pretty clear, really. It's all about traditional, conservative values. And what is more common or conservative than publicly humiliating females who cheat on their husbands by dragging them into the public square, binding them tightly with ropes and having every able-bodied male in town shoot hot loads of thick, burbling man-sap into the offending wenches' pleading, upturned faces?

Nowadays, bukkake isn't a disciplinary action... it's a way of life! Modern, liberated young women of all races, colors and creed have awoken to the erotic potentials of this practice, and today, you can't swing a dead cat without hitting a gal who likes it directly up on the face, or straight down the throat, or in the eyes, or all over their heads, whatever way they can get it, really.

If you desire your models cute, your content exclusive and your facials hardcore, then
[deleted link cause this sites full of AIDS] is certainly what you have been searching for.

Now, if that isn't the best spam mail ever, I don't wanna know what is.

Tomorrow I am skipping photo in the morning because if I go I get to have a 5 hour gap in between that and a 3 hour history class.  So I'm just gonna go take pictures then head in mid day or something.  We shall see.

Until then I can be found eating my frozen potato skins, hasta hasta!

-Chris

Mouth Wooed Him

I always feel bad when I go to Rob Roy's class because I never really take it or him seriously. He is an amazing artist and what not but his advice is so non-intrusive that its hard to even listen to his opinion on anything.  To boot we have a critique today which usually means he will babble on for an hour and no one will talk at all besides him.

  Besides that I have Gabriel's photo class today and even though I'm a photo major I hate that class.  We really haven't done anything of note or mention except for the latest assignment.   So thats one entire semester of wasted energy.

  Tomorrow I get to have a 5 1/2 hour gap in my day between Adv. Color Photo and History of Photo.  Why they assume this is a great idea, I have no clue at all.  So I think Panera's/Denny's is in the cards for tomorrow .

  ALSO; Jamie, don't worry that you woke me up, you only woke me up like 5 minuets before my alarm was going to go off so its not like I was missing out on massive amounts of sleep.

And I think thats pretty much a wrap for right now, until next time...

-Chris

Train Station Glances

So it was good to finally hang out with Natalia again after not seeing her for so long.   She is one of my last friends from high school that I still live near and can see on a regular basis.  We basically WoW'd and made fun of her love affair with Neil.  

  Other then that my dads birthday cake tasted amazing even if he was to drunk to even eat it.  That wasn't going to stop me from enjoying a good cake!  I've been asking and asking people about so many things but I never can come forward and explain why his drinking bothers me and why I get so frustrated with him.  Partially because I can't even explain it to myself...

  On a lighter note; every day I ask Jamie to marry me and each and every time I honestly mean it...It is only a matter of time but time needs to matter faster!

And with that it is time for sleep,

-Chris

Skipping out

  I decided today that english was out of the question for today.  So instead I drove home to basically sit here and play WoW.  Which I know is really not productive in any way, shape or form but hey, I really felt like I was gonna die if I went to english.

  Natalia is coming over tonight to WoW with me.  Other then that I'm watching Logo and spacing out, refreshing my Facebook and drinking Coke Zero.

  And thats that folks.

-Chris

Come On Get Off

   Not much has been happening in my life as far as dramatic twist and turns.  Yet I have found myself growing more and more attracted to Jamie as days grow on.  I'm glad this is happening and I can finally get over those old name and old faces that left me bruised and crying.  

  I'm excited for "Late Night and the Mass Pike" this saturday, It should be fun, I hope Erin and Sarah can make it as well as Jamie.  I really have missed spending time with my friends  like I use to in high school but with everyone in different areas now we can only get together once in a blue moon...if that even.  I know its part of growing up and moving on and what not but anyway you slice it, it still isn't a fun affair.

  I'm not sure though if I really want summer to roll around or if i just want winter to be over and to have it replaced with a constant steady season...I do miss drinking outside in Brighton with good company.  Speaking of good company, Misty and Brent moved to North Carolina and I never got a chance to say goodbye...I am really gonna miss them we always had fun when we'd hang out together but there we have it another splitting of paths.  Maybe we will road trip there this summer for a visit, who knows.

  well all and all its been an interesting year so far but I could deal with a little R&R.  I'm off for the night.

-Chris